Crying over spilt milk

The routine now is every morning, I get up to express milk for the following night. This ensures that my boobs don't hurt so much that I can't sleep and it also ensures that the bubs get fed through the night without my needing to subject my poor nipples to their barracuda chomping through the night. In order to keep the nipples up and running the next day, the nights are a necessary time for them to rest.

I've been told that I should exclusively latch the babies on but then again, the people that tell me this have had single babies and haven't had the wonderful experience of being chomped on about 16-20 times a day for varying durations.

Anyway, the long and short of it is I express, often half asleep. 2 mornings ago, while trying to balance the breast pump on the desk, it accidentally toppled over and some milk spilt out. I don't think it was much in the large scheme of things, probably 5 ml or something. But just spilling that, after struggling to get as much as possible into the bottle for the twins just got to me and I just sat there and cried.

Till that point, I didn't understand the old cliche "don't cry over spilt milk". Well, I've understood it at a metaphorical and analogical level but never till then, had I really cried over spilt milk. And I must say, it was indeed a very heart pain experience.

Now, I'm extra careful when I balance the pump or anything that contains the oh so precious breast milk in it. I wish the day would come where the milk would flow in abundance and I wouldn't bat an eyelid at losing 5 ml. But till then, every drop counts.

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