Then and now

There are a lot of things I've forgotten about being pregnant. A fellow pregnant friend and I were commiserating how powerful Mummy-amnesia was and how it was God's way of ensuring procreation because if not for it, we'd all have one kid, traumatised by the experience so much that we'd get our tubes tied and insist on vasectomies just to be on the safe side.

Even though there is NO CHANCE (for all those still wondering) that this time it's doubles again, it hasn't been all that much easier. The nausea, while it did not leave me living in the bathroom with my head in the bowl the entire day, was as bad, especially considering running after two two-year-olds.

When at some point, I looked with warm, fuzzy feelings at my twins and thought "I would like, at some point to do this again..." I'd forgotten about the amount of anxiety and uncertainty a pregnancy could be, from start to finish. All it took was the first bout of spotting to remind me of that, sealed and stamped when it repeated itself when I was in Phuket with no O&G 4 bus stops down the road.

I've also plain forgotten, well, not quite forgotten but the recollection of post-natal blues have dimmed somewhat significantly until a fellow blogger mom started writing about it first hand and then prompting me to write something about it for Mums-a-musing. While reading her blog and doing research for the post I was writing, I was reminded at how crazy things could get post birth. And all I'd been thinking about was nice baby smells and gurgling noises.

So, Mommy amnesia. A most powerful tool and a dangerous one that causes 'nice' delusions.

The one good difference between the previous pregnancy and now is size wise, I have no means of comparison. I think I'm tiny now and I'm happy for that especially since I was the size of a small tank the previous time. And so, everyone who complained about how quickly they got big in the second pregnancy, finally, something that I am not experiencing. And with the nausea, the tremendous exhaustion (I keep being reminded that I am about 3 years or so older than the last time this happened), the slight complications and bed rest orders, I'm taking what reprieve I can get.

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